AtlasI can tell you all dayAtlas by ~sirenoftheplains
how amazing you are
but you can't hear me over the voices
you've heard first, telling you over and over
quite the opposite.
and I want to silence them.
I can't silence my own, you know.
I want to counter every negative
with something positive.
I want to see you experience joy.
you deserve that much
after saving me.
You deserve better
than life has brought.
You carry so much pain with you
from the days before this one.
I fear you might break
if one more thing falls on
but then, maybe I can return the favor.
maybe I can help save you.
first birthWithin an inflatable pool,first birth by ~sirenoftheplains
levity exists in the form of cartoon-fish
painted upon the sides
as I find myself gripped
by the replication of my species
In that primal zone
between lizard and human brain
I bring forth
the voice of a hurricane
into the stillness of the room
shouting him into being--
Willing him into existance.
Willing it to be over.
Tapping into the force
of my foremothers with all the intensity
I FAIL TO SEE THE BEAUTY IN THIS MOMENT
...then I do.
and then the pain comes around again
deep and primal
until I feel myself s p l i t t i n g open
to reveal that tender new self
still yet unaware of his being separate
pulsing cord connected
purple and blinking and pissed
knowing cold for the first time
but here, earthside. Mine.
Together we rest, spent.